Liturgy 045: I Used to Trust You

🕊️ A Prayer and a Blessing for Surrendering Our Heresies of Trust

☕️ Lectio Divina

Those who trust in the LORD
are like Mount Zion,
which cannot be moved
but abides forever.
— Psalm 125v1

Blessed is the one
who trusts in the LORD
— Jeremiah 17v7a

🧘‍♀️ Prayer

LORD
I used to say
I trust you…

But what
exactly
was I trusting
you for?

National security?
Household Income?
Geopolitical Legislative Reforms?
Decreased sugar consumption in diabetic kin?
Professional sports teams of geographic proximity to excel beyond analyst expectations?

Probably my future.
Future health.
Future wealth.
Future companionship.

Blindly trusting you
to orchestrate
my desired outcomes
only made me more uncertain

I used to say
I trust you…

I wanted to trust
a God of my own making.

Help me LORD.

Help me to trust…
Your way.

Help me to trust
your invitation
to be
the kind of man who…
visits the sick
learns the names of the poor
forgives his parents
blesses despisable colleagues
works as if working unto the LORD

Help me to trust
the way of kindness
the way of patience
the way of gentleness
the way of self-control
particularly with my wife and daughters
particularly when things are not as I had planned

When everything in me
and everyone around me
resists
such ways

Help me to trust

May my character and my name
be immovable as
Mt. Zion
because I
trusted in your ways.

🕊️ Blessing

May you step out of the matrix.
May you see the journey of your soul as primary.
May your pilgrimage be fixed upon union with God and kindness towards neighbor.
May you trust God not for an outcome, but for the joy of honoring the teachings and promptings of the Risen Christ.
May you have many stories to tell of God’s lovingkindness.

In the Name of the One
who trusted His Father
even to the Cross

Amen